Monday, March 9, 2009

Who I was, am and are















I joined Face book not to long ago and have reconnected with some school mates. A couple of my school mates posted some pictures of me and I about fell over when I seen them. The top one is of me at Godfather's pizza during a Christmas party. The other one is a group of us signing yearbooks. I am the one at the end in the red. I sat and looked at these pictures and I started to think about who I was. I remember somethings and not others things, but do I really know who I was? Other people could tell me who I was, but at that age did I really take note. I remember causing some problems and being a little rebellious. But, not everyday living comes to my mind.




Then after I married my sweet hubby, I still did not remember who I was. I remember thinking that maybe it is wrong to place all my life and thought into one man. I loved him so much and I never felt so loved by someone else. Is this wrong to feel so happy, then the honeymoon wore off and the relationship became so strained. I remember wanting to leave Jeff and move back to Seattle with my parents. It was not until, I rededicated my heart to my awesome Savior that I realized the awesome marriage that I had with Jeff. I started to ask Jesus to show me why Jesus loved me, what is it that He wanted to do with me. I realized that I am completely blessed with a God who loved me enough to create me, give me an awesome husband and two beautiful children.

I am not the same person from High School. I have been taught how to love others because of God and God set me free from all the abuse that I had held onto through the years. I have also tried to be obedient to God and His word, I do fall and I am human. But, I try to follow. I know who I am and what I want, I am a child of God, I want Jesus and I strive to further His kingdom every day. And most of all, I am a teacher by example. I hope that all my actions and my verbs glorify my Lord on a daily basis. This is so important to me. Truth is so important, if I did not have a basis to follow, I would be reckless and rebellious. I am saved and Thank God for Jesus and His dying for me. Amen.


2 comments:

Anonymous said...

great pictures! That middle picture of you reminded me of ME. The v-neck sweater with a shirt, buttoned to the neck under it - we must have grown-up in the 80's (or something)

It's nice to look back and see how far He has brought us :o)

Nana C said...

Tanya, this post is beautiful. So nice that your shared. The picture of the family is one I will keep! Love Nana C