Friday, February 4, 2011

Craving God

For Christmas, my husband got me a Kindle. One day when I was online I found this book called, "Craving God, a twenty eight daily study" I down loaded it and I started reading it. On the first day it talked about how God gave us cravings. These cravings were intended to crave God. We were never intended to crave other things like money, food, or sex. We were destined to crave God. That is why we have the cravings to begin with. You know, this really made sense to me. I have had such struggles with cravings it is not even funny. But I realized that I need to refocus those cravings towards God. I need to go to the word when I am craving food.

Psalm 139:14
"I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works and that my soul knoweth right well".

My soul knows what to crave, what to worship and what to praise. God made me this way, from my mother's womb. But my flesh gets in the way. I was made to worship, praise and crave God

Another comment by the author really hit home: "I have to admit, I am overweight physically. But I am underweight spiritually."

This is another example of why I need to get my flesh under control. I need to make those craving for God and not let my flesh rule me and run to what I have made a bad habit. To let the food control me. See, really, I thought for many years that food was the only control I had. But really, food is controlling me and it will eventually kill me.

I love that scripture in 1 Corinthians 9:27, where Paul talks about control,
"But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway. "

I struggle, I can blog about all that I learned and all that these authors or the bible has shown me. But in the end, I will surrender to the flesh faster than God. I know it, and I see. Am I happy about it, no. I am tired, and I need God. I also need to be willing. How can I be a good witness, if I am inconsistent, and I am not secure being a Christian. I can not. I will not bring anyone to God with in consist behavior. It is time to put feet to my bible scriptures, blog entries, to my beliefs and I need to not let anyone or anything take my eyes off the prize. The Prize is Jesus Christ and my relationship.

I pray to be a better witness for him and in that I need to refocus. It is time. I am ready to be spiritually overweight. I need prayers, encouragement and possibly others who feel the same way. We are given a task and that is to fill the kingdom of God. Are we ready and our we strong in our faith? It is time.