My Special day with my family

Well, Wednesday was my birthday. My 40th to be exact. I can not believe that I am now 40. Does it bother me? No I am really excited to keep going on in my journey with God and my family.

I remembered when my mother turned forty. It really bothered her. I am not that way, my age has really never bothered me. I am so grateful for that. I guess, I just believe that every year gets me one year closure to Jesus. Not that I do not enjoy my family, I do, but I am so excited to see Jesus.

Well anyway, Jeff, Luke and Melanie got me a cake and a bouquet of flowers and a Snuggy. I am so excited to use it. I was so surprised that they did that for me. It made me feel so special. I love them so much.

So then I went to my ladies group and they surprised me with a cake also. How special I felt, it is awesome to be surrounded by so many people in my life. I love ya all and I hope that you all have a great weekend and I am praying for you all, Love Tanya. Oh by the way, Lori, thanks again for the clothes, I am so loving them.

A Funny but true sign

My daughter and I go on this site that you can down load pictures for your cell phones. This morning I was looking up pictures with sayings on them or pictures with signs on them and I ran across this one. Have a great weekend everyone!! From Tanya

Recipes for Life

Last September we were moving Jeff's aunt Barb to the nursing home. Well, recently she has passed and gone to be with Jesus. So, I was going through some items and I found this cook book from Union Carbide 1971. Union Carbide eventually became EverReady Battery Company. It is now closed and even the building is torn down. So, I was going through this cook book and in the back of it was a section call Recipes for Life. I started to go through the little recipes and realized that they were little poems with a recipe kind of twist. I would like to share some of them with you.

"Lost, A Word"

I Lost a cross word yesterday

Unguarded from my tongue.

It slipped into the atmosphere

Then Trouble had began.

A dozen others followed it

They filed the room with grief.

No matter then what word was said

It could not bring relief.

If I had only stopped that word

before it crossed my lips.

My day had been a happy one

and sweet with fellowship.

I think I wasted yesterday

hurt self as well as friend.

Today I want to watch my words

and let not one offend.

"Happiness Cake"

1lb. Kindness

1/4 lb. Charity

1 cup Helping Others

3 cups Good Humor

1/2 cups Thoughtfulness

3 cups Laughter

dash of Peppiness

large portion of Love

Mix well and swerve at all time

by, Ruth Speed

There were many more, but those two really hit me. I loved all of them and we should bake happiness and joy into our lives and our families. Before I go, I would like to post a couple of things that I am grateful for. I am grateful for God, with out Him, I would be nothing. I am grateful for Jeff, he keeps me in line and shows me love. I am grateful for Luke and Melanie, they give me reasons to be joyful everyday and to laugh. I am grateful to laugh and smile, it brings such excitement into my life and most of all, I am grateful for me. I am so glad that God pursued me and made me who I am today. Love all of you and have a great spring!!!!!

Seeking

I thank all of you for your uplifting comments. I really enjoy them and yes Nana, we do need to keep each other accountable.

I have been journaling again and I really have been real through this journal. I have decided that if I am going to loose weight, I need to be real with myself and God. Even if it is painful, I need to do it to heal and loose.

I am really looking at when the bad habits started, it started when I was little. I remember just stuffing my feelings and running to food. Of course, my mom also comforted me with food. Food has always been a big part of my life, but most of all, I have not been honest with myself or others. I have always just stuffed what I felt, I did not share with people how I really felt. I would tell people what I think they would want to hear, but really I did not tell them how I really felt.

Lately, I have been able to tell my feelings and not what they want to hear, but how I really feel. I have said it in love and not in anger, but I am tired of feeling like I am walked on. And really this stemmed from my mom. I wanted her to love me so much that I told her what she wanted to hear. I am now going to pray about it and then I am going to confront it in love. And I do have some loose ends that I need to address and mend.

So for now, I am not going to stuff my feelings and then fill it with food. I am going to take out the middle man, food, and bring in the ultimate man God. Thanks for your prayer and the encouragement. I need it. Love Tanya

I love spring, the new grass, the buds on the trees and the bulb plants peaking through the ground. I find it interesting that the new growth and the newness of life during the spring months. Well, lately I have been really pondering my body and how I have not been really taking care of it. Fear has surfaced like fat in boiling water and I have never realized the fear that is in me. I have spent so many years running to food and spending lots of money. It is so comforting to me, but on the other hand, I really want to turn over a new leaf and be more obedient to my Father. It is just letting go of control and letting God take care of it. I am not sure where God is going to take me from here, I am not going to get hasty and quick to make decisions. I really believe that just know that I am having this problem is the first step. I also realize that I need to flood myself with the word of God. Holding what He says higher than what I want. Well, like they say, "Time for Spring cleaning." and I believe this is true. I appreciate all of you and I adore your prayers for me. I will be looking for an accountability partner. It is time to be accountable, so I will be praying for that right person and I am praying to take my flesh under control. It does not need to have everything it wants, because God is greater. I love you all and I will keep you updated. Love always Tanya