Mary Kay Career Conference 2010

Last weekend Teresa, Tiffany, Mindee and I went to Des Monies for a couple of days for the Annual Mary Kay Career Conference. It was so awesome. This is Stacie, she is a National Director and an awesome lady. She gave her I Story and shared some tips on how to further our businesses. She is a down to earth kind of woman and I really enjoyed her. This was taken on Friday night and we had a blast dancing and watching all the ladies who worked hard get a chance to dance across the stage. Teresa even got to dance across the stage because she earned her Red Jacket. It was so awesome. This next picture was taken on Saturday.

Mindee, Teresa and I all had seperate classes. I learned so much and met so many wonderful gals. This is really a great business with wonderful women.

It was a great time

My Good Friends

I have always been really blessed with my friends. I have always had support, especially when I have struggled through something. But just in this week, God has used me in mighty ways to be there for my friends. I have realized that friends are awesome to laugh with and joke around. To pray for and to reminisce on our past. But friends are also awesome in times of troubles, times where they need advice or times to let them cry and question why. How blessed to be a part of their lives and be there to hold them up in prayer. Or to just hold them while they cry. I feel blessed to be on this side this time. And to all my friends who are struggling through things, I just wanted to tell you how much I love you and then I am praying for you. I am in your corner and I am holding the handkerchief for you. I love each and every one of you.

God is so good, He wants us to go to Him. He wants us to lay all of our problems at His feet. I have realized that only God can get us through. That also means how to be a good friend, one who prays and not gossips, one who loves without judgement and one who excepts with pure love for the other. Am I perfect in this area, no, it will take time and practice. I am grateful for the practice God is giving me. And I will lay all my friends in God's lap and pray for each and every one of them. I am going to love. Love Tanya

I am Christ Bride

I have been down the last couple of days with a cold. It has really wiped me out. During this time I have been really praying about what God wants from me. But one of the things He has been reminded me of is the fact that I am His bride. And that I need to be ready. It was also mentioned in the Breaking Free Book that a group of us are doing right now. I really have looked to Him with different eyes and the Word Of God has really hit my heart like and arrow to a bull's eye. I do need to be ready for Him, I believe the time is nearer than any of us can even imagine. I am honored to be His bride and I am so at awe at Him and why Me? I am blessed and in love with a wonderful Creator, Awesome Redeemer and Healer. And I will be up in no time with His help. May my God be with you and always with you, for He is awesome. Love Tanya

The Spirit vs the flesh

I really love to watch Kent Hovind, he is a great creationist who really loves the Lord. If you do not know who Kent Hovind is go here . Any ways, the reason I posted this video is, at the end of it he does a rubber band demonstration. The demonstration is really good and it really spoke to me the other day when we watched the video again. Remember to turn off my music so that you can hear it. Enjoy.

I am more up beat then I was in my last post. I do think that God has been showing me more about myself, It is a journey. I have to share something that happen to me this morning and made me look at my Lord in such a different way. In John 11:1-44, it is the story of Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead. I realized two things while reading this, the first thing I realized it that I am like Mary, I will sit and bask in God's glory. I love testimonies of others, I love to read God's word and see revelations in my life and I love to see the movement of Jesus upon lost people. I am right up there with Mary. I would of found the oil and anointed Jesus just like Mary did, I would of even been on the verge of obsession with Jesus. Another thing that I realized by reading this passage is the fact that Jesus is the Resurrection and life, I am not sure how many times I read this and this morning I got it.

John 11:24-27 "Martha saith unto him, I know that he shall rise again in the resurrection at the last day. Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believe in me though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever live and believe in me shall never die. Believes thou this? She saith unto him, Yea, Lord: I believe that thou art the Christ. The Son of God, which should come into the world."

Jesus is the resurrection, he could raise the dead right there and right now if he chose to. Why wait until the day of resurrection, He would just do it. Why not, He is God, He can do what he wants as long as it glorifies His Father. It just made so much sense. Why have I not seen it before? Well, I was not ready, I was full of self and lately I have realized that this flesh has got to be controlled by the spirit. And through these revelations I have seen lots of things. It has really opened my eyes to the power of my Lord. Awesome.

So when you go to the bible, let the Spirit lead you, you might be surprised at what you walk away knowing. After all knowledge is power and wisdom comes from the Lord. Amen

Oh, I can not believe that I have not blogged in so long. I think it is time to start back up. I have felt like I am just existing right now and I need to get my feelings out. We had a dear relative die this week, and I have to tell you I am so happy for her because she is sitting next to Jesus right now. But, I am also upset with myself for letting business stop me from seeing her while she was alive. I have dealt so with this guilt all week. I know that guilt is not of God and my relative would not be so happy to know that this is my sorrow right now. But I have to confess that guilt was there before she died. So much has been going on in my life and I have felt guilty about many things. The board and I have made the decision to close the doors of the center. Now, we will be available for emergencies. But the doors of the pregnancy center will be closed. And I feel guilty about this. Of all the people that have been directors I closed it. It is eating me inside and I feel like I have not only let others down, but that I let God down. And through all of this guilt I have built a wall of shame around myself. Like the scarlet letter, I have a big G planted on me. I really need your prayers for healing and I just need to pull down this wall. It is something I am going through right now. And I hope that all of you do know that God closes window and opens door.

I have also learned this week that this is where satan gets me. He gets me with guilt. He uses everything to make me stumble. My conversations, my relationships, my feelings towards God. He knows just what to do, and frankly I am tired of it. I need prayer for this bondage to be broken. I am tired of this bondage and I want a new life and be a new creation in God. Please just pray for me this week. I hope that this touches someone, God has many promises of freedom from bondage and I believe that guilt is one of them. God bless all of you and thanks for the prayers. Love Tanya