Friday, August 14, 2009

where I am right now.

When Jeff and I were first married, we both worked. I had really never thought about staying home and taking care of the kids. And most of all, think about home schooling the kids. So about a couple of years ago, God directed Jeff to bring the kids home and I would home school them. I have to say I was not to happy about this, but in time with prayer and direction from God, that is what we did. I was still working third shift full time and home schooling the kids. Then eventually God directed us to have me quit my job and stay with the kids full time. So, here I am a stay at home mom home schooling my children. Now, I am facing another bend in the road. Jeff's job had laid Jeff off at least two days during the month, Jeff works twelve hour days and that leaves us loosing about four hundred dollars a month. Less than we are used to. Jeff and I have looked at our finances, what we can get rid of and what we can be without. Food also has been a problem, so we are using the areas necessities. Jeff and I even talked about me going back to work. This is an area that I never want to focus on, but if we have to then I will obey.

So, why do I share this with you? Well here is my answer, faith, I have realized during this season of our life that God said that he would provide all of our needs. And he has done just that, the house is okay, we are not at the point where there is a foreclosure. We do have clothes and God has provided what we need. And food, there is food coming at us in all directions. As far as finances, Jeff has gotten more day at work and he is making more than we would of even expected. I believe that when I let all control go back to God and just trusted that he would full fill his word, He was able to work in our finances. My faith is really growing through all of this and I would like to share a scripture that God showed me the other day in my daily reading that really touched my heart.

"But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them the diligently seek him." Hebrew 11:6

I diligently seek him in my life, I may not be perfect, which everyday I strive to be. But I diligently love him and seek his word everyday. That is all I need to have faith, and I want to please him, I love him so much. This has meant so much to me. His word is such a comfort for my heart.

I know that we are not the only ones going through this, but I assure you that He will get you through this season, and most of all be opened to what He asks of you. God bless all of you.

4 comments:

Susan said...

I love this post. I watch you from the side and I am always amazed at how you stay strong during hard time. What a witness that is to people. i really enjoyed talking with you the other day at the pregnancy center. can't wait to start our new bible study.

l.ann said...

Mark 11:24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.

As you well know ~ what you ask for must be in line with His word, but provision is a promise from Him. We first have to be good stewards of what He gives us, so put all things in subjection to His word/ways and the storehouses will be overflowing.

Standing in the gap!

Nana C said...

Tanya, when I read a post like this, I am so thankful that I have personally been there to talk with you, have Bible study together, drink coffee and pray together. You are a wonderful witness of being right where God needs you for his Kingdom. thank you , nana C

Deborah said...

God is so good, and worthy of our trust and praise.
Hebrews 11:6 is one of my favorite verses.