I love Autumn, it is so unpredictable. Yesterday we were bundling up and cold and today we have our heat off and we have all the windows open. It is so beautiful out with all the leaves all over the place and the trees are bare. I reminds me of my life when it seems to be unscrambled or I am hurting, bare and messed up. And I go through a cold and barren season, but soon the buds come up through the ground and trees began new leaves and I am healed and refreshed. Seasons are so amazing, God just made them like our walks with Him. Each season represents the way we go through trials. He is so amazing.

I have been going through this study called "Lord Teach Me to Pray in 28 Days" by Kay Arthur and it has been so awesome. Yesterdays chapter was "Total Dependence on God" as I was going through this chapter I was struggling a bit with why I do not give my life totally to God. I stopped and started to pray and then I journaled it. I started back with the study and God answered me so quickly, I have abandonment issues from my childhood, so I am really not quick to give my life to Him. I realized that I wanted God more than keeping this issues on my heart, I gave them up to Him and I am going to march forward with God. He is my only life line in this world. I felt so great after I let it go and let God.

Then today the study talked about Asking of the Lord. Here is a quote that Kay gives, "Prayer is the key to Heaven, but faith unlocks the door." Awesome!!! We need to be in prayer always and asking the Lord for help continually. I have also realized that I need to be in the word to learn all of His promises in order to know how to pray more efficiently. I really loved this book and I hope that it will really build up my prayer life. I have been so blessed lately with freedom from bondage, health, friendship, and the relationship I have with my blessed father. I am so looking forward to this season of Thankfulness and the soft reminder of a Savior born to free me from sin. My heart leaps for joy and I am so thankful for every breath I breath. God bless all of you and thank you for reading my rambling. Love Tanya

Our anniversary was on September 28Th, but with all of the activities that our family has gone through, we were not able to celebrate it. So last night Jeff's family came to our house and we celebrated our anniversary and some October birthdays. This is funny, Jeff and I were blowing out two candles. You would think this would be easy, but no, Jeff leaned over and blew out mine and left his burning. He is such a card sometimes.


I have to be honest with you, when I met Jeff in the Army, we had only known each other for a week when he proposed. I remember the night that he asked me to be his wife. I was in shock, how can I be his wife when I did not know how to be a wife. The examples of marriage for me was not exactly the best. I was so scared, but it is like faith, I knew I loved him so much and I just could not be without him. So I said yes, but I was still not sure. After he left for the states and I was still in Germany, I just felt like someone had took my heart from me, and I knew that it was Jeff that had. So I just had to marry the man who stole my heart.

Now, 19 years later, I still feel the same for Jeff. The love has really matured and I look at Jeff as being more of my best friend than my husband. We laugh more than ever and we still have our moments. But in the end, he is the one I go to for question, a shoulder and support. I am blessed in life with two best friends. My first one is my Lord and my second is my husband. How awesome is that.


This is our brother in law Jr, his birthday is in the beginning of October, so we celebrated his birthday last night. It is so amazing to me how the time has just gone by so much. I remember celebrating birthdays one at a time, but now that our families have grown up, it is hard to get together with everyone. Our kids are now almost on their own and they are producing their own lives.




This is Jeff's dad and Jr on their birthday. Next week is Halloween and then we are looking at the season of Thanksgiving. I am amazed at how this year just flew by and we are almost two months till 2010. It is so fast and my kids are so grown. I love them dearly and I am so proud of them. I cherish each and every event, moment and birthday with our family.

Time is not on our side, but we can full fill the time we have with good memories and love. I am so grateful to the Lord for showing me Love. I would never of known how to love if it was not for him. He has shown me so much and I am so grateful for it. God bless you all.

P/S I wanted to ask for prayer for a couple of things. First, I found out yesterday that a dear friend of my side of the family (Richards side) died on Thursday and she is with the Lord. But her husband who suffered a stroke some years ago is still alive and in a nursing home alone. Please pray for him and his safety. That God wraps him with protection and gives him good nurses to take care of him.

Secondly, Tasha was rushed to the hospital on Friday with contractions every three minutes. It turned out to be a false alarm. But she is really close to having the baby. She is 3.5 cm dilated and on stricked bed rest for two weeks. So just keep her in your prayers.

Thirdly, a dear friend of mine has gone through some hard time in the last week, I just ask that you pray for her and her family. The comfort of our Lord who never leaves us, and the guidance of our Lord through tough decisions. They really just need comfort right now.

And my last prayer request is for another dear friend and her husband. That the Lord would heal, protect and guide through some health and job issues. God is with them and I know they will get what God needs them to get. But just pray for them.

God bless all of you and have a wonderful week. Love Tanya

I really do not have much to say today, but I love you all and you are all in my prayers. Love Tanya

God is good all the time. I just went and seen my Doctor for a check up and I am not longer going to have to see him. I am completely healed. I can not lift anything 25pounds or heavier. But I am completely healed and on the mend. I feel so good and I can not believe how awesome God is. Thank you so much for all of your prayers and so much for God and His ultimate healing power. I love all of you and I will write more later. Love Tanya

Ever since I have left the hospital, I have been so amazed at how the Lord is working in my life. It seems that Jeff and I are closure and we are really working on our relationship. Of course it is so nice that he is now on day shift. And I am closure to Melanie and Luke and more focused this year on school. But most of all, I am seeing God more clearer. I have been getting up at five thirty in the morning and spending that time with God. I am seeing Him with such excitement and love. I really see how awesome He is and His word is awesome. I pray for the season that all of you just sit back and just bask in God's word. Notice the creation around you and the peace that fills your family. He is so awesome and so much wanting to get closure to you and me. What a beautiful day we had and I am so blessed to have blogger friends like you all. God bless you and have a wonderful evening. Love Tanya